It’s Monday! (And just so you know, I’m not really as excited about Monday as it seems…Let’s be positive, though.) After what felt like a whirlwind of a weekend, I’ve struggled to make my way into Monday. Really, it was a whirlwind. I traveled to Nashville this weekend for Lifeway’s Girls’ Ministry Conference (Woo Hoo!!!) and toured all of downtown Nashville and slept very, very little…so I’m feeling a bit time-warped and overwhelmed at the fact that a brand new week stands in front of me. Ready or not.
I woke up this morning thinking about how faithful God is in that He always walks with me (and you) through even the toughest days. He isn’t overwhelmed by the issues I faced last week or those I’ll face this week. He’s faithful to keep His promise to be with us.
“Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.” -Deuteronomy 31:6 MSG
Last week, honestly, was tough. Sometimes in leadership we’ll find ourselves battling the enemy (Satan) who’s attack schemes are hard and fast and mean. I was on the defensive end a lot last week. And while it’s an understood fact that I’ll walk (or crawl…) through the valley battles sometimes, being attacked is never easy. It isn’t fun. And sometimes I wonder where God is…while it seems that I’m being backed into the corners and it feels like the weight of the world rests on my shoulders. As I sat in my living room yesterday, with watery eyes and a tear-stained shirt, I was reminded that my thoughts are not far from the Father- my Heavenly Father who knows me very well. The tears that sometimes fall when my heart is broken and my feelings are hurt are seen by my God. He feels the weight of my sadness and my concerns are known to Him. There’s comfort in knowing that He’s faithful and He knows me well.
Here’s the truth. I realize that I’ll never be the perfect leader. I’ll never have it all together. I’ll never have all the answers and I certainly can’t fix every problem I face (although I do try!). I’m perfectly flawed and sometimes I’ll stand alone among people because of this calling. I’ll wrestle endlessly with thoughts of insecurity and unworthiness. I’ll battle Satan because I belong to Christ. I’ll find myself at the crossroads of doing too much and not doing enough, and when it seems like things are going well, something will always go wrong. When I feel like everyone is happy, deep down some are probably not. And when I think I’ve finally arrived….the journey is really just beginning. The weight of this is heavy at times, but I’m thankful my faithful God says to me everyday, “I’m here, Kindall. Take my hand. Let’s walk through this together.”
How has God shown His faithfulness to you? How have you been reminded of His unending faithfulness in your life? Join the conversation! Comment below!