I Can’t Know…

I realize that I’m not the only person who’s ever had to wait on God. So, although we may not share the same reasons we’re waiting, the fact that waiting on God’s timing is inevitable in every Christian life brings us together. I seem to be in this constant season of waiting these days and at times it’s lonely. At times I question whether or not God really hears my prayers (Although deep down I know He does.). On the outside things look great. He’s doing some awesome things in me and through me. This summer alone He’s taken me all over the world. I’ve walked in places I never thought I’d see. However inside, my emotions are like a roller coaster. Some days the fact that I’m 26 and not married…or even have a boyfriend for that matter….doesn’t bother me at all. But other days I’m lonely, brokenhearted, defeated. I never thought I’d find myself here. Somedays I can see the silver lining and know confidently that God is working on my behalf behind the scenes. Then again, there’s days that it seems as though God is so far away. Growing up in church has taught me to be thankful for this season of waiting, but let me be real. It is hard to be thankful sometimes. If I’m being honest, I wonder sometimes how this is going to end. So, while thinking and praying about this season I’ve been in for quite some time now and all of these things I just don’t know, the Lord challenged me to think about all of it in a different way.

I can’t know…
….about the future of my career or choices that I’ll make concerning it.
….what challenges I’ll face in Room 117 this year.
….if I’ll ever get the chance to build my first home.
….if the man God made for me will find his way into my life anytime soon.

I can’t know when, where, or how God will choose to answer my prayers. But, there are things I do know and they will carry me through this place.

I do know…
…that God has a divine plan for my life. He knows what my career holds and the decisions I need to make concerning it.
…that the children in Room 117 are there for a reason. They will be cared for and loved.
…that when the time is right to make the move into a home of my own I’ll have a peace about it.
…that God has promised that He will not allow me to miss meeting the man He made for me. God has a plan for that relationship and it will be a living testimony to God’s goodness and grace for His children.
…that God is constant through all of my ups and downs. He never changes. He is good. He knows me deeply. He loves me. He has all of this under control.

So, I hope you find this as either an encouragement or a challenge to begin thinking about things differently. As I go about my day I’m going to attempt to remind myself in those low, lonely, uncertain moments that even though I can’t know…I DO know.

“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14

“But as for me, I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.” Micah 7:7

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” Romans 8:18

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6

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